Short story of myself is...well...I'm, needless to say, at a crossroads in life. Within the past two weeks, I've ended a relationship, an engagement rather, because of some unfortunate circumstances, and felt the calling of God to transfer schools to a university closer to home. Its overwhelming to say the least, but I can just feel the will of God in all of this. As I said, A Blessing.
My spiritual life throughout the last year has seriously backslid. I got so distracted with meaningless things, and rather, went through the motions. I took so much for granted, wonderful influences and friends, and a great spiritual atmosphere at Liberty University. I just coasted.
But, this is a new beginning, and in my brokenness, God has been constant. So this is my chance to do a 180.
To keep myself accountable with my devotions (along with sharing my heart) I decided to blog them. Cliche, I know. But hey, if it works it works. And the first day of a new month seemed to be the perfect day to start.
I found a devotional online, I believe on Zondervan's website (though I could be terribly wrong) which was titled "30 Days in Psalms". Also, I'm reading through, randomly, "Moments of Peace for a Woman's Heart".
Today's Theme: Blessings (Oh the Irony)
Today's Devotion was out of Psalms 67, 72, 84 and 128
My prayer leader for the last two semesters at LU called these "God Spottings", where you encounter something in life where you say to yourself "Wow. That was 100% God." Needless to say, this was mine for the day.
The aforementioned relationship...When it ended I was left completely broken. I truly though that it was right, and good, and God's will. I was so blind. But since it was such a serious relationship, it was very difficult to heal from. (Mind you, its been hardly 2 weeks) But God is allowing me to heal and have peace far beyond my understanding. Now I can finally see, along with those around me, that this was basically a blessing in disguise. Yes, my heart broke. Badly. But to list everything God has taught me through this? Awesome.
I can say this, because I am 110% guilty of this. I think we don't allow God to bless us sometimes. We get so caught up in our plans, and what we think is right. And from experience, if you're going to be so bold as to say you're in God's Will with something, you better be sure beyond a shadow of a doubt. I just used it to qualify a relationship that really was not all that great for me. I don't know about you, but I don't want to meet the Lord someday and have him tell me; "Well I really wanted to bless you with this, but you wouldn't let go of this so I could." So I've let go. Bless Me God!
Just a couple verses that stuck out to me;
1) Psalm 67:7a - "God Will Bless Us"
Plain and simple. We just have to let him.
2) Psalm 72:6 - "He will be like rain falling on a mown field, like showers watering the earth."
Admit it. We're all dry parched deserts every once in a while spiritually. I'd say thats a legit blessing in this verse.
3) Psalm 84:5a - "Blessed are those whose strength is in you."
I swear that verse was for me today. I'm tired of trying to find strength in the storms of my life on my own.
Above I mentioned the Women's devotional that I was reading through. Hand in hand with blessings, I was reminded today of how truly Merciful God really is. He really just wants to bless us!
So...theres today. I look forward to this journey. Thanks for putting up with me =)
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